Just some midnight thoughts
How Can I make a difference? How can I contribute? What can I do better? These questions—they are good questions. Why are we so forgetful—why do we so easily forget that this time on earth is not about us. So quickly, I return to concerns about me. How can Danny serve me? How can I get the kids down so that I can just eat chocolate and drink a beer? How can I—have more time to myself. Now, I know time to myself is really super, muy muy importante, but I still wonder how I can resist slipping into this mindset.
Why do I even care about the kinds of cute pillows that are on my couch or not on my couch when people are having babies with no support, or flooded with water, or flooded with other things, or in a drought. WHY DO WE CARE ABOUT THESE THINGS when people are dying all around us or starving or ______________________ fill in the blank with whatever.
How can I make a difference? What kind of structure can we create in our family to be OTHER focused…whether it be focusing on our children or our spouses or friends. We should be focusing on fulfilling the needs of others.
How do we do that, yet also carve out enough time to fill our cups so that we CAN pour out to others. What is this balance, Lord?
If you give me the pathway, I will follow it. Holy Spirit, awaken in me an understanding as to how to live for others and not for myself. What can I do on a daily basis to refocus on YOU and on OTHERS and de-focus on ME. On my needs. Teach me your ways, O Lord, and guide me in paths of truth and righteousness—not in the path of empty trends and false pretenses. Help me to be MORE of who you made me to be. And less of a do-er who feels like DOing creates value. Help me to rest in you, my Jesus and to model this so that my children seek to serve others first.